clever me.

for already few months, i got tremors & bruises.

i gave excuses not to go for medical check up.

today it happened again,actually non stop from last night.

so i went to the clinic. with fear of the needle they use to suck out blood.

damn its huge. scares the shit out of me. every time.

and so the doctor said, 'it may be caused by your ___________ & ____________'

i was, 'owh?maybe i should have come earlier after all.'

hurm. so now what?

tremors come & go.

swellings absurdly often.

and i thought it was nothing.

hurmh. wadever.

...............

i fail my paper.

...........................

...........................

...damn..............

...........................

...medicine i took is affecting my body............

and this result is not a good news...........

.........................

.........damn......

...speechless.......


...tp alhamdulillah.....

......i tried my best......

...but still???

my cries.

i'm tired. i'm exhausted.

i'm not a good guy. i tried.

i'm not that smart. i'm not that bright either.

i'm not good looking. i wish i am.

i'm not rich. i'm just of average.

i dont expect the extra ordinary. i just want simple.

i wanna be love, yet i hurt others so much.

i'm lost.

felt like my life ended so long ago, and now i'm just a puppet playing his role.

help me.

help me breath.

get me out of this suffocation.

i'm just to tired to do this alone.

help me please.

i dont wanna give up. but this body,this will...

its falling apart,

literally and technically.

i'm just so exhausted.

sum41,perfect*

The Naked Chef?

A few days after my final paper. dont really know what to do, because my other cliques are still having their exams. but still, exam folks still needs to eat ryte? hence, the idea to cook. hehe.

venue : umah jimbets.

menu : italianies :p


1) Carbonara Terbang Tepi KLCC



2) Pizza Gurindam Hati Pak Dolah



and guys, trust me when i say its good....its damn good...because it makes my face looks like this after i eat it.

definitely cant have those too often.sigh.

woot2 :D

Hye guys. I've been itching to update this blog,but i was always lazy and dont have any idea on what to post about.hehehe.Three semesters had ended since i first set foot in Universiti Ini Aneh. I managed to go thru my first year here, atho the journey was a bit bumpy and spicy. Last 16th, i finally finished my final exams. it was a 'struggle' i guess? So,what have i done in this semester? i have no mood for exams,i skipped classes excessively,i despised the stupid tutor who brags about himself in all the time, i messed up with peoples life and many more. life is a lesson,and im still learning. ther are many pace of life that i had not yet get the chance to experience. I know, I've changed. How? Thats one thing even i myself are not so sure about. Its your job to answer. I hope it is for the better. So, heres a little summary about what i've been up to this semester.hehe.

1. Asean Logics 2009 Contract Signing Ceremony

getting some work done.

some of the 'photogenic' staffs.


2. Majlis Makan Doa Selamat

me in kain pelikat.hehe.rare occasion to see me wear this.

kereta ba-erk yang terbakar after isya'. cian b-erk.huhu.


3. Annual Grand Dinner @ Kinrara Golf Club

me trying to look 70's. failed.

with meon n akmal. the two jimbets im learning from.hehe

no idea why this pic is senget. wadever.


4. Wawasan Raya Open House

wah....raya....

amongst those who helped. CSEs'!

self made kuih jala :)



5. Annual General Meeting

Councils of 09/10

the pampbasts.haha



6. Convocation

celebrating the convocation :)



7. Work.

still,theres work needed to be done :(

One Ringgit & Five Cents.

when nothing is actually everything.

help me thru this insanity.

demotivated.

demotivated.

why? bcoz i failed one of my Shariah subject papers.

why? its either bcoz he's a strict marker, or its simply bcoz im just a plain idiot.

thus, i failed. its like the lowest marks you can give, for pages of essay answers.

so, calmly in my heart, there's a voice that shouts, ' WHAT THE FUCK!?'

It has already been few days since I got my answer script back. But still, sigh...

I need some motivation to keep me going. Help me :(

I'm sick of this pathetic life.

My parents were shock when I told them I wont be coming back for this coming holidays.

I'm wont come back. At least not for now. Maybe next year.

not gonna surrender yet!